Happy Anniversary

 

8 Years ago today I married my friend. Granted between then and now we were not always so kind to each other. Then on this day in 2009 I renewed my vows with that same man, only we decided to put Christ in the center of our marriage. Today I was reflecting on our entire relationship over 11 years and looking at the pictures that capture moments in time so long ago and I look at what we have grown in to and I love every bit of it. The good of course because it was fun and good and makes me smile. The bad because although it may be ugly and sad it has made us grow. Finally the worse~er...lol Yes there was worse~er in our life together and it was so painful and so cruel and at times hateful I love it too because we grew stronger through it and I rely on Jeremy 100% now to be there FOR me and I learned how to be truly in love with him and not in lust with him, Our first several years were based on lust rather than love and we fought allot, split up a few times and said SO much trying to break each other. We have done things that cut deep in our relationship and yet we pulled through. After everything Jer and I have been through I DO not Believe ANY marriage needs to end up in divorce, I believe that you can save it NO MATTER the trespasses. We have had almost every one you could think of in ours and Through CHRIST alone did we reconcile. I am so head over heels in love with my husband and can only thank God for that!
I am so happy to have this man in my life who loves me for me, is an amazing father, provides for his family, makes me laugh, holds me when I am afraid, walks with Christ while leading our home. Jer is the one God has chosen to be with me forever and always, my soul mate, my counselor, my confidant, my helper, my spiritual leader, my lover, my best friend. I cannot live without him and don't even try to imagine what I would do if I lost him it breaks my heart even at the thought! I look forward to growing old with him where ever we are if he is there it is home! I can not wait to see what our future holds and what paths God will lead us down. I love you and cherish each day I am blessed to wake up next to you Jeremy Enns!

Highschool...

Why didn't I post this one???LOL oh well here you go!!:)

CONGRATULATIONS TO YOU HIGH SCHOOL GRADUATES!!!!!!!!! WAY TO GO!!!! You are the future make it something beyond greatness!!!:D
I say hold that hard earned diploma with pride and know how blessed you are to have the chance to go to school in freedom of a beautiful country. Make a difference for future generations and look at your life as lessons to have learned either hard or easy it doesn't matter they were all lessons set to teach you something set in place by our Creator! Take a second to breathe before facing the next season of your life. It too will carry many lessons. You may struggle you may stumble, you may just soar to the highest heights of those mountains you will face:)

time to STOP and listen

How can I stand for one thing and maintain my boundaries in one situation then in another feel guilty into offering resolution and put aside our differences and leave the past out of it. Being faithful to my God and to my own human feelings are totally compromising and painful. Why can't it be easier being a follower of Christ, I pray for it all but struggle to hear the answers...it is time to STOP and listen in silence. Let me be an obedient child.

I have some issues in my life regarding family lately and setting and standing firm with boundaries is becoming very difficult. I have to let go and let God do what he needs to but when I am facing backlash from different people for my actions it leaves me questioning everything. I am struggling to hear God's answers when my own brain is running 1000 miles an hour and going crazy in different directions and I feel I am spinning out of control. STOP and Listen.

God's lessons have been exactly what I needed and when I think I am following God's will in my life and things appear to be falling into place something happens or a fight breaks loose and I am left questioning my path and was it really from Christ? Why let these things taint my blessings? I am human and have insecurities and feelings and they can very easily be brought to the front of my every thought especially by the ones I hold close to me, but why do I allow that?

Lately I have been finding myself regretting the steps I took back in March to better my life and break out of the chains that held me back in becoming the "butterfly" I used to be. I wanted to become a social butterfly like i used to be, bubbly and inviting, spontaneous and adventurous, fun and someone everyone wants to be around, like I used to be and I started to do that by letting go of the things holding me back from that and it felt great. Then other things started to happen and fights led me to regress and regret those progresses...why? why did I let Satan win over those victories I had?

I stopped writing again and stopped blogging because I let Satan win over that too, telling me nobody cares what I have to say or the things I write. STOP and LISTEN!!! Veronica you were writing and blogging for you and God only, anyone else who read it and benefitted AWESOME! anyone who did not like what you had to say too bad who cares!! So here I am taking another stab at something to get me feet back on the right path and for this moment in time while I click away at the keyboard...I give a crap again about ME!