LUKEWARM...This is a scary message that I do not want to apply to myself. I know of lukewarm Christians who come to church Sundays and sit in their pews lifting their hands to Jesus with tears in their eyes during worship and then go on with the rest of the week living for themselves, doing things pleasing to the flesh and NOT to our sovereign Lord.
I know people who claim to be praying for others publicly and yet have no personal relationship with Christ behind closed doors thinking nobody will notice. I know people who shout "Why me God!?" yet have no problem skipping church because it conflicts with other plans made.
I am SICK and TIRED of these 'lukewarm Christians' in my life and church family, seeing their lives outside of church and on facebook Monday-Saturday one way but come Sunday they try to "fake" it. Maybe they think this is the way they are supposed to be?
I KNOW I am not perfect and I make mistakes in my walk, but I pray that God will make my path straight in my crooked life and I do everyday what I would do Sunday. I try to be an example of God's mission with everything I do or say and I totally think I am falling short BUT I am willing to at least admit to that!
I serve in the Jr.Youth program knowing that generation is at risk of being a Godless generation and it breaks my heart to see kids so lost and broken, and their behaviors are DEFINITELY a reflection of parenting. I pray that I can be an example to each of my youth kids on how having Christ IS BETTER than not.
I KNOW how easy it is to sin. I know how 'great' things can feel at the moment when you give in to temptation, BUT I also know how pleasing the flesh still leaves your soul empty. I know how awesome things can be when you give in to God's will for your life and how much He will bless you. He will bless you with the wants of your heart once you humble it to be thankful for your NEEDS being met and not Praying for earthly possessions to fall into your lap.
I am SICK of people who claimed Christianity and yet can so easily spit poisonous words from their mouths and see nothing wrong with it. Being spiteful in one sentence and then requesting assistance in the next. Sick of people being two faced and my witnessing it and doing nothing sickens me.
I don't want to live in torment of my choice to follow Jesus Christ but never being able to be HONEST with the hypocrites in my own life. I NEVER hold anyone accountable of the choices they are making in fear of starting a battle I am not sure I could fight on my own. Yet I sit and pray that they see the errors of their ways because I am told that is all I can do is pray for them. So we all walk on eggshells around these people and I ask myself how is this helping? HOW? I close my mouth as not to rock the sinking ship. BUT I pray.
Then I pray for Jesus to break my heart for what breaks His and when I see it I DO NOTHING...I Tick myself off!!!! Is it MY ONLY role to pray?Without talking about it without taking a stand am I giving it a chance to change?
How do I deal with the things I SEE? Why do I keep my mouth shut? because I am told to? Is THAT in itself breaking my sweet Lord's heart? Someone try to shed some insight to this situation of what is wrong with the world today and as Christian parents, aunts, uncles, cousins, brothers, sisters, sons, daughters, grandparents, friends,and strangers... WHY ARE WE FAILING THE LOST ONES??? ISN'T IT ABOUT TIME WE STEP UP AND FIGHT FOR THEIR FREEDOM IN CHRIST??!!!(yes that is me yelling) Myself included...I admit to dropping the ball, can I say NO MORE!!??
If I am wrong believing in Christ and you are right there is no God,and no Hell, then when we die and there is nothing we are just bodies in a box in the dirt then I have lost nothing, but IF I AM RIGHT and you are wrong and there is a God and a Hell and I have gained an eternity in Heaven and you will be burning in hell!
Ok I am done for now and this is FROM MY PERSPECTIVE...Later reader!:)
To a Wonderful Family.....
So today is Monday and it was a slow start to the day, I had a good weekend and hope to have a great week but I have a TON on my mind. Every time I sit at the computer I think about friends of ours and I get teary eyed. The friend who lost her husband I want to say how sorry I am, I can't imagine how she feels and what she is going through. I can't imagine being so suddenly alone, no more husband to hold you close at night, no more inside jokes that the two of you share, no more looks across the room of intimacy that you hold for each other, no more kisses stolen on the go, no more taking comfort knowing he will provide, no more things to argue over, no more making up after that fight, no more crying into his warm embrace, no more asking his opinion on how this outfit makes me look knowing no matter how awful he will tell you its hot, no more laughing with him or at him, no more long talks into the night about what your future holds, no more dreams shared for your lives or the lives of your children, no more cleaning up after the mess he's made, no more cooking for him the best and the worst of your menus, no more looking for him to come home after a long day at work, no more asking for his help to put something together that DOESN'T call for instructions and ALWAYS comes with extra pieces, no more working together to get the house in shape for company, no more rushing to get everyone out of the house to be on time for an event, no more long trips in the vehicle and snuggling close as he seems to know the way, no more coming home to a romantic evening he planned all by himself...all these things and so much more that you will have no more of I just cannot wrap my mind around them all. Time to Thank God for all you had together and for the man He blessed you with and Thank God you know where your man is now! Love and Prayers with you sweet friend and my heart aches for your loss. I have to say this sudden news has allowed me to be even more thankful for each day that I have been granted to wake up and experience, and each little thing that My husband represents in my life all the good and bad I welcome it all, I love you Jeremy!
To the children of this Godly man that we have lost, our dear friends whom we've shared the last few years with. I am so so sorry for your loss too, I haven't had a parent pass yet and I am not sure how I would feel to actually lose one of them. I know a dad is someone who a little boy admires as a hero and wants to be like when he grows up and a little girl looks for in a future husband and until that husband comes into the picture Daddy is the one who keeps you safe. Dad is the one who plays all the rough games with you and says a scrape on the knee is what makes you tough, Dad is the one who shows you how to hold a hammer, fishing rod, baseball bat, remote control, Dad is the one who is usually the one willing to trust you behind the wheel, Dad is the one who teaches you about sports, engines, hunting, working for a living, BBQ-ing, Dad is the one who you look to for spiritual guidance as a man, Dad is the one who is the one who scares off the bad boys in your life, Dad is the one who will pick you up in the middle of the night after having too much fun and will discipline you with compassion after because he's been there, Dad is the one who pats you on the back for a job well done, Dad takes pride in your accomplishments and shouts from the crowd That's MY kid! Dad is the one who leaves a legacy behind in his children and the stories of his life. Your Dad's legacy and life testimony is definitely one to admire and the Godly example that he was is one to strive for!Thank you for being a part of my life and allowing me to call myself an honorary sibling of your WONDERFUL FAMILY!!I pray healing for everyone He left behind!xoxo
Yeah so that is just a tidbit on my mind today the rest seems irrelevant right now. Thanks for reading and being a part of my blogging life and we'll see if I get around to writing again today or do I save it for another day!!??!!. Later Reader!:)
To the children of this Godly man that we have lost, our dear friends whom we've shared the last few years with. I am so so sorry for your loss too, I haven't had a parent pass yet and I am not sure how I would feel to actually lose one of them. I know a dad is someone who a little boy admires as a hero and wants to be like when he grows up and a little girl looks for in a future husband and until that husband comes into the picture Daddy is the one who keeps you safe. Dad is the one who plays all the rough games with you and says a scrape on the knee is what makes you tough, Dad is the one who shows you how to hold a hammer, fishing rod, baseball bat, remote control, Dad is the one who is usually the one willing to trust you behind the wheel, Dad is the one who teaches you about sports, engines, hunting, working for a living, BBQ-ing, Dad is the one who you look to for spiritual guidance as a man, Dad is the one who is the one who scares off the bad boys in your life, Dad is the one who will pick you up in the middle of the night after having too much fun and will discipline you with compassion after because he's been there, Dad is the one who pats you on the back for a job well done, Dad takes pride in your accomplishments and shouts from the crowd That's MY kid! Dad is the one who leaves a legacy behind in his children and the stories of his life. Your Dad's legacy and life testimony is definitely one to admire and the Godly example that he was is one to strive for!Thank you for being a part of my life and allowing me to call myself an honorary sibling of your WONDERFUL FAMILY!!I pray healing for everyone He left behind!xoxo
Yeah so that is just a tidbit on my mind today the rest seems irrelevant right now. Thanks for reading and being a part of my blogging life and we'll see if I get around to writing again today or do I save it for another day!!??!!. Later Reader!:)
WOW!!! Ok New Post:)
OK so I TOTALLY didn't think this blog thing was going to even be read by anyone let alone commented on, That is awesome!!!LOL So I will update some things that have taken place lately and see what else is going on out there with other Blogger`s that I've enjoyed reading....OK let's see Lately on the home front...hmmmm ok lets go back a few months I think that is when I started this thing huh... (pause to check out date of last posting)
Yup July 16th...my little brother's birthday...heehee So If I can even remember back that far anything happening back in July??? Well our youth pastor Mike gave his resignation to the church...well that was major news in the church and the community so major that it had some controversy surrounding it all and there were a TON of people asking questions. I feel as a Youth leader in the church that it was a shock but God`s Will and we may not Get It but His timing is always always always PERFECT!! So after LOTS of discussions with my husband, leadership, Mike, and God, I have accepted the situation and am moving on.
sooo What else...Ok July....well I dont want to really want to talk about July OR August for that matter...I actually am going to get with it because it is September something and I started this post a while back and changed my mind about where I was going with it and saved and quit, only to return to it now and I really am going to use this as a hobby to pass time once in awhile while the kids are in school.
SEPTEMBER: Ok as for our house there has been little news from us other than all three of our boys are in school right now and Jeremy has been away from home for work off and on for some time now. He is enjoying his job and that is great but there is a different tone in him, lonely up in The Pas.
Sad news on the church family front though. we have lost a great great guy who was the father of close friends of ours and my heart broke at the news. I cannot imagine the sorrows the family is feeling. I know there is joy in knowing this individual is celebrating up in heaven with our Heavenly Father but there is sadness in the fact it was sudden and there is a great family left to mourn. Our Love and prayers are with them all and of course I offered to assist in supporting them any way I could. Jeremy was very sad to hear the news especially being away from home all he could offer was prayers and love. I cant imagine the pain and sorrow the widow is going through and now that i am going to cry again I think I will move on.
Also this month it was my middle son's birthday on the ninth and he turned eight and I feel truly blessed to have my boys. He is a very sweet little man who is very electronic savvy and I cant even believe he is only eight sometimes. I LOVE YOU BOO!!
hmmm what else? Our youth kick off is coming up and that is exciting should be fun...well I dont know I am thinking if i continue to type I will end up discussing another frustrating situation that may leave a foul taste in my mouth so I think I should sign off for tonight...well thanks reader! Promise to try to be more productive on here!!haha
Yup July 16th...my little brother's birthday...heehee So If I can even remember back that far anything happening back in July??? Well our youth pastor Mike gave his resignation to the church...well that was major news in the church and the community so major that it had some controversy surrounding it all and there were a TON of people asking questions. I feel as a Youth leader in the church that it was a shock but God`s Will and we may not Get It but His timing is always always always PERFECT!! So after LOTS of discussions with my husband, leadership, Mike, and God, I have accepted the situation and am moving on.
sooo What else...Ok July....well I dont want to really want to talk about July OR August for that matter...I actually am going to get with it because it is September something and I started this post a while back and changed my mind about where I was going with it and saved and quit, only to return to it now and I really am going to use this as a hobby to pass time once in awhile while the kids are in school.
SEPTEMBER: Ok as for our house there has been little news from us other than all three of our boys are in school right now and Jeremy has been away from home for work off and on for some time now. He is enjoying his job and that is great but there is a different tone in him, lonely up in The Pas.
Sad news on the church family front though. we have lost a great great guy who was the father of close friends of ours and my heart broke at the news. I cannot imagine the sorrows the family is feeling. I know there is joy in knowing this individual is celebrating up in heaven with our Heavenly Father but there is sadness in the fact it was sudden and there is a great family left to mourn. Our Love and prayers are with them all and of course I offered to assist in supporting them any way I could. Jeremy was very sad to hear the news especially being away from home all he could offer was prayers and love. I cant imagine the pain and sorrow the widow is going through and now that i am going to cry again I think I will move on.
Also this month it was my middle son's birthday on the ninth and he turned eight and I feel truly blessed to have my boys. He is a very sweet little man who is very electronic savvy and I cant even believe he is only eight sometimes. I LOVE YOU BOO!!
hmmm what else? Our youth kick off is coming up and that is exciting should be fun...well I dont know I am thinking if i continue to type I will end up discussing another frustrating situation that may leave a foul taste in my mouth so I think I should sign off for tonight...well thanks reader! Promise to try to be more productive on here!!haha
Cinnamon Buns and Pukey Children
Dude I can't even keep my train of thought for a long period of time my eyes are doing this wonky buzz thing, and I think I am seeing doubles every now and then!WOW I had quite the night, First I went to my sister's in law town for coffee and a cinnamon bun (really good) and an awesome time talking with her about Faith, friendships, my fears and so much more. It was a very good time good coffee, and then we went over to our other sister's house to pray with them. I know in my heart I was failing to be a good spiritual supportive sister and did pray for them daily but not deep and intentional, you know what i mean? So anyhow, while i was there my hubby phones me and says i need to head home the two older boys are throwing up and he has to work in the morning...understand hubby just started a new job and doesn't want to take time off in his probation and he is trying to prove himself as an asset to the company. Not to mention I am blessed enough to NOT HAVE to work so I feel like of course this is My Job! It was just a little sucky to be called out of a very good night for me. ANYWAYZ...headed home prepping myself for my second all nighter this week. My baby boy had eaten too much and was up throwing up all night Tuesday so I was up all night with him. So I got home and got into my shorts and a tee threw my hair up out of my face and got their beds ready on the couch. Hubby was relieved to see me and he helped me get them downstairs from their beds so I could tuck him in to bed and I thanked him for letting me have most of the evening before calling me home. then went down to tend my boys.
It was a crazy night of as soon as one was settled down to sleep the other would have a fit of "choking"(what they call puking because it feels like that i guess)In all this yucky stuff my middle boy said "thank you mom for taking care of me. i want this to stop." I told him it would only stop once all the yuckies were out of his body and that I would be right here to take care of him always! *touching* then he put one arm around my neck and leaned his head on me. Then my oldest had a spill of violent vomiting and asked me to make it stop too so i said the same thing it wont stop till all the yuckies are out and I prayed over them which seemed to help them rest a bit better.
SO after awhile i felt like my eyes were getting heavy so I made a bed on the floor between my loveseat and couch and turned a movie on the computer to take up time between "the fits" then by 430 in the morning i was able to take almost exactly 30 minutes of sleep before the next spell of fits and I was feeling like it would never end too. but by 545 it seemed they were resting soundly...phew...then at 6 the alarms are going off and hubby needs to get up...well I might as well call him down and wait till he is off to work. yup in and out of consciousness but by 730 he was gone...ahhh no more fits get some sleep...please sleep in kids...OK by 930 youngest son strolls downstairs and asks "mom can i watch TV? why are you on the floor? hahaha" so i turn on TV and lay there praying for some sleep. but the cell phone is beeping, gotta use the bathroom and make breakfast for kid,but eventually i get another little snooze in. and then the phone rings waking me up again BUT its news about prayer last night so I'm ok with getting up,The kids seem to be doing great NOW I guess they won't be eating choke cherries again anytime soon!!now I'm sitting here BLABBING ON and on and on about what again? oh yeah Cinnamon Buns and Pukey Children!!:) sorry I tried not to be too detail oriented! Going to go make lunch & some coffee now, it may be all that keeps me alive today! Later reader!
It was a crazy night of as soon as one was settled down to sleep the other would have a fit of "choking"(what they call puking because it feels like that i guess)In all this yucky stuff my middle boy said "thank you mom for taking care of me. i want this to stop." I told him it would only stop once all the yuckies were out of his body and that I would be right here to take care of him always! *touching* then he put one arm around my neck and leaned his head on me. Then my oldest had a spill of violent vomiting and asked me to make it stop too so i said the same thing it wont stop till all the yuckies are out and I prayed over them which seemed to help them rest a bit better.
SO after awhile i felt like my eyes were getting heavy so I made a bed on the floor between my loveseat and couch and turned a movie on the computer to take up time between "the fits" then by 430 in the morning i was able to take almost exactly 30 minutes of sleep before the next spell of fits and I was feeling like it would never end too. but by 545 it seemed they were resting soundly...phew...then at 6 the alarms are going off and hubby needs to get up...well I might as well call him down and wait till he is off to work. yup in and out of consciousness but by 730 he was gone...ahhh no more fits get some sleep...please sleep in kids...OK by 930 youngest son strolls downstairs and asks "mom can i watch TV? why are you on the floor? hahaha" so i turn on TV and lay there praying for some sleep. but the cell phone is beeping, gotta use the bathroom and make breakfast for kid,but eventually i get another little snooze in. and then the phone rings waking me up again BUT its news about prayer last night so I'm ok with getting up,The kids seem to be doing great NOW I guess they won't be eating choke cherries again anytime soon!!now I'm sitting here BLABBING ON and on and on about what again? oh yeah Cinnamon Buns and Pukey Children!!:) sorry I tried not to be too detail oriented! Going to go make lunch & some coffee now, it may be all that keeps me alive today! Later reader!
My first Blog...
Well this is numero uno for my real blog attempt...hmmm what can i write about? where do i begin? I do want to live transparent for one, and I welcome constructive criticisms and comments and questions, I hope people will feel free to share with me honestly....wait, who would really follow my posts anyways? I have much experience reading other peoples beautiful blogs and life stories and adventures BUT Really who wants to sit and read a bunch of hoopla straight out of my brain on to this "Blog" and I am sure this blog will probably end up being mostly about my kids and home life but I do want a place to maybe vent about other issues I may come across in life and voice My opinions about things that maybe bothering me or leaving me to ask what the? or why? So I guess I can start off with a warning....lol yup
WARNING: This BLOG is just my ramblings about nothing and everything and will contain some random ideas that should not be taken seriously! Everything is From My Perspective and allot of times that can be a scary point of view that may not even be the ideal point of view but it is mine and from time to time it may change as well, I can be a little quick to conclude things with emotions and heart before I rethink things with logic and guidance through my Bible.
There. so please feel free to tell me what you think about this first blog attempt and I will work on the next few very soon. that's it for now I have to go be mommy and make some lunch for my kids!
Oh and thanks to my first readers whomever you may be!!!
WARNING: This BLOG is just my ramblings about nothing and everything and will contain some random ideas that should not be taken seriously! Everything is From My Perspective and allot of times that can be a scary point of view that may not even be the ideal point of view but it is mine and from time to time it may change as well, I can be a little quick to conclude things with emotions and heart before I rethink things with logic and guidance through my Bible.
There. so please feel free to tell me what you think about this first blog attempt and I will work on the next few very soon. that's it for now I have to go be mommy and make some lunch for my kids!
Oh and thanks to my first readers whomever you may be!!!
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