and I thank You.......

A crack in the silence and my walls that I built are crashing down around me.
Made of glass made from deceptions and its falling at my feet.
The purity of who I am is standing here exposed in front of You.
I cannot hear what You are calling me now because my internal screams are breaking out of body.
Like a porcelain doll that is aging in seconds my face is cracking and the imperfections are becoming evident.
Who I am, who I was, who I want to be, are all unearthed and begin to make my stomach turn at their stench.
I wanted to keep the mask's I earned hiding the truths I did not want to share.
The things I hide from everyone but You.
The tears trickle down my cracked and frail face at the discovery of how You are changing me.
I want to fight this.
I am not ready.
Don't You know how much this hurts.
My knees are beginning to buckle beneath me and it appears there is nothing left for me to do but crumble.
Against my own instincts of sheltering myself and raising the guards the out pouring of my soul begins.
My sins begin to fade as they are brought into Your lightness and the sobbing becomes uncontrollable.
Everything raw open and exposed I lay here in pure exhaustion from the exorcism of the burdens and the demons that I carried.
You let me rest.
... ... ...
Then You lift me up and walk with me.
I am no longer alone.
I no longer fear.
When I am weak, You give me strength.
I no longer hate what I am, who I am, who I want to be.
You give my life purpose other then living for myself.
You bless me for believing You.
You died for me.
You give me truth.
You are the Light.Divine.Amazing.
Almighty.Beginning.End.
Awesome.Alpha.Omega.
Savior.Salvation.
The One.The Only.The Way.
I want to live as You did.
I want to reach out and tell everyone who it was who gave my spirit this renewal.
It was You.
You Saved Me.
You...
...
You are my
GOD ♥